I’m nearing the end of my school residency (not to be confused with a medical doctor’s residency) and I find myself more and more emotionally drained. I simply don’t have the mental capacity to come up with creative topics to blog about.
The previous night we had to write about what our “Trigger Person” would be like. Demographics (if you have it), personality traits, and what they’re coming to therapy for. Many of us chose straight, white men. This alone is telling of a problem, but that’s another kind of post that isn’t going to happen today.
We came into the classroom the next day and immediately broke into groups of 3. One of us was going to roleplay the trigger person for the one who wrote it. The purpose was to get us in the moment so that we would have the opportunity to work on how to get to the core idea and not react emotionally to such a very stressful situation. We also needed to be able to find a way to do this without compromising who we are.
There were some tears around the room. I played the bad guy a few times because the ladies I was grouped with just had the hardest time mustering up the ability to say really shitty and awful things to each other. We all knew it was a safe space. We all knew that we didn’t mean it. But it didn’t hurt or shock us any less.
By the end of the day I was emotionally spent. I was unable to appropriately navigate doing therapy with my trigger client (which seems to mimic very closely the recent harassment group in the gaming community).
So my post of substance is going to be a prompt post again (even though the reality is that I wrote more about today’s school day than the prompt. HA!).
“If you could have personally witnessed one event in history, what would you want to have seen?”
This is actually a really tough question. There are so many significant points in time that I feel would be interesting. To keep this simple and probably super cheesy, I would follow Amy Pond’s footsteps in the episode “Vincent and the Doctor” and go see Vincent van Gogh. I know it’s not an event, exactly, but I feel like watching him paint and seeing him live his life is an event! That episode still kicks me in the feefees every time I watch it and I keep watching it even though I know it’s going to make me cry. I think the message is important. So I’d love to visit Vincent, watch him make his masterpieces, and just admire him.
Let me know what historical event you would love to have seen?